I'm Feeling: Determined
i have a feeling that this will be one of the last negative posts i do here. negative meaning about what's going on in the not so yarn part of my life.
the good news first- right before new years, i sold a hat and scarf set on etsy. See here. it was the last thing that i had listed and i was surprised it went so fast. i'm just about done crocheting winter stuff. or am i? i'm a scarfer for sure so i don't know if i can let it go that easily and i'm not sure what i can do for spring and summer crochet. i'll have to go on another pattern quest. i love this set - hope it sells soon, too. i've got to get into making more hats. they're faster than scarves and speaking for myself, i wear them more often than scarves. that might be because i can make a new one at will.
so, an etsy resolution for me is to put a lil more variety in my shop. i'm close to attempting another stuffed one. just close.
so, how was my new year you ask? to get personal - i was dumped by my finance'. so, instead of spending it with him, in wonderful vegas- the place where many travel to party hardy, i was at home, trying not to cry and crocheting while watching HBO comedy specials until i could no longer keep my lids open. dominic was up until shortly after the clock struck 12. he didn't care for the sound of all the fireworks so he went to sleep. we cuddled on the couch for a bit (until it was too much for me to hold on to him and get into crocheting.
so, i start off my new year single-not looking (but hoping that some one new will come along) i'm not used to being single, it feels weird. i'm not the type of person to go out and play the field and i'll be damned if i do internet dating (that got me a jack ass who is able to leave me hanging and a kid [who i love dearly]). yes, i met him on the internet 5 years ago. i was still in highschool when we met. enough of that, though. i'm trying to get on my feet. that's going to be the hardest thing i've had to do in all my 22 years. having a kid comes naturally, but actually fending for yourself -man!
i still dream of being a SAHM/ housewife, but i guess i'll have to put in some time in the big bad world before i can do that again/ at all. after crying for a week, i can't any more. i'm all cried out and i'm not sure that there is much to be crying over. i have to tell myself that it's better that he flakes, changes his mind, cheats, or did what ever it was that made him leave now rather than later. if he doesn't get killed in iraq, there is going to be plenty of awkward moments in 8 months. gosh, another one bites the dust. even though i'm tempted to go out and try to find some one else - must be a non-smoker and better looking, i'm through with blonds, a few abandonment issues? i don't mind, you might actually know how it feels to be left hangin.
huh? oh, this isn't the personals? my bad!
so yeah - to do for self! hey, that could be another resolution! I WILL DO FOR MYSELF!
ok, in other news, my cousin is having a girl! after 6 boys, this is something to celebrate!
i've decided to make her something. i'm working on a hat set which will include a hat (of course), some booties, and some mitts. i'm winging it on the set but i finally got the hat done last night. i don't know what what it is about hats but i always have about 4 false starts before i get going right. i have what i consider to be a butt load of lion brand's jamie in soft yellow. apparently, this is what i got it for! i've started on a couple of blankets but i think i'll be using the pattern that comes on the back of the label. the first i started was going to be a large granny square. much like the ones i made for dominic. for some reason, the dang thing didn't lay flat so after i got done with the skien of yarn, i unwound the blanket and it's now a ball.
she's due in february so i best get a move on it! i have quite a few WIPs that NEED to be done. so i think my shop will go a bit by the way side until i bust some of those down. i'll be adding small things, of course, but nothing too time consuming.
along with the baby things, i promised my mom a hat. she got this yarn from red heart that is a variegated pinks with red. her fav. color is pink so i told her i would make a hat for her. i tried to do one using the hippie hat pattern that i found on CPC and that i've used to make my own but it was not lovin the red heart. i used caron before so it was softer and more flexible. red heart made it look like a waste basket, it was so stiff!
so, that's what's on my hook for now.
i made dominic an earflap hat which he doesn't appreciate at all. it was my first so i think the placement of the straps might be off. he's got a big noggin anyway. i might wind up giving it away.
i don't think that i've made mention of a Christmas surprise that i got just before the day. it was a purple box filled with crochet notions and i just love it. that box follows me around the house when i crochet. in it, there was a row counter. dominic thinks it's his because it clicks when you push the button. it's not, it's mine! that's my favorite thing in there. and i also got a yarn cutter pendant. it's cool! i have yet to make a cord so i can string it and put it on my neck but it's a handy lil fella. i was so moved when i got the box in the mail. i often don't feel like people get me and after many trips to the toilet with dominic and running around after him and food and everything that is life for me - opening that box was a bit of a get away for me.